Thursday, April 22, 2010

I Want To Shop!

I don't know if it's just a girl thing or just me. When I am anxious or nervous I want to go shopping. It doesn't even have to be anywhere big, it can simply be WalMart. Weird I know. I am in this weird mood today. So much on my mind I just need a charge card and let me go. Unfortunately since I am in the process if trying to buy a home I can impulse shop ( my worst habit). I can think of so much I want. I know that is selfish I should be thankful for all the nice things I have, but I swear its just the anxiety. Don't get me wrong I love to shop, but even more so when I am anxious/nervous.

I want to shop for my new house. I want to buy paint, home decor, new pots and pans, a Kitchen Aid mixer...... and the list goes on and on.
So while I am trying to be a good girl today- I won't go shopping. I will surpass the urge!
I hope all of you sweet girls have had a great Thursday, be happy tomorrow is FRIDAY!!


Sunday, April 18, 2010

When It Seems To Be Too Good........It Usually Is.

I sit down to write this post and I am at lost for words, not sure how or where to begin. I was on cloud nine this week from the wonderful news that I got on Tuesday. That is until yesterday morning when I awoke feeling like hell. (Sorry, but this post is about to get personal). I had started my cycle.
Each month I take a hormone to make me have a period and then this month it just happens by itself and at the wrong damn time. I guess holding on to the hope that just maybe I might be pregnant was then shattered.
Tomorrow I will start the fertility medicine again for the 3rd time. I HATE that stuff and it is the absolute worst feeling ever.
So here is to another month and another try. My hope is fading and it's so hard to stay positive. I am just going to put a smile on my face and focus on the new house and try to keep my mind off of it. It does no good to sit and worry it just makes my dream seem like it's just so far away.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


I am still in total shock. I had my progesterone levels drawn on Saturday. So after I was pissed because I didn't hear anything on Monday, I called Tuesday for results. I had to leave the nurse a voicemail and she returned my call within 10 min. She said Breanna we are so happy with your results. You did ovulate on the new dose! Last month my numbers were 7.6. They want them to be atleast 14 or higher. So when I asked her what my numbers were this month she said Breanna, I am not sure. Our lab cuts off at 20 and it was greater than 20!!!

Thank you everyone! I love you all and thank you all so much for your kind comments, text messages and emails. They mean the world to me!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Monday's Just Suck

Ok, I really hate Monday's. It's been one of those days. My hopes were high and I was waiting to hear if the Clomid worked this month. I wouldn't know because they didn't call. That's right. Not a phone call. So that just really bummed me out. And with the way these hormones are raging it makes me want to call them and say, "Thanks for not doing your job." It's really important to me that I know what's going on, it may not affect you, but it does me" "So do your job and call me my results"

Ok, I am done ranting. I hope tomorrow is better. I do not want another day like today,please.

Love, B

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I am sorry I have been MIA the last week. My life has been chaotic. We moved out of our apartment and are now looking for a house before April 30th. Soon right? We know. So in the middle of all of that I am trying to get my stuff that was stolen from my luggage. I am sorry that you and all my sweet blogger friends may feel neglected, I am trying to juggle everything and I am doing a shitty job. I'm sorry. I still love you all!

Love, B